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Those Were the Days
When I wrote 1000 words a day. Not so long ago. I know I am getting awfully boring and incredible annoying with my whining but what the heck, it is my blog and I can write what I want;) Not that I want to be ignorant of the readers, but I am sure people understand. And now, I *NEED* to whine;).
I am still in a very odd mood. I want to work, I can’t concentrate. Too much going on around me, which makes me being on high alert all the time. I am crossing my own nerves already. Thanks, Sabina, to listening to me, not an easy job I must admit;).
Yesterday, one of my colleague from uni read Chapter 4 (cos it’s related to her topic of expertise) and she gave me some great feedback. She said it is very well written and she only had some minor comments. Oh, this was nice to hear!
During the writing up, I kept some sort of stat diary, with number of words written and the timeline of when they were written. I am afraid to open that file and to realise that I did not make an entry already since Saturday the 5th. That’s exactly 10 days ago. 10000 words went down the drain. It gives me shiver only to think of it.
But today, well today … or better tomorrow, I will go back to my … hm, there are plenty of names I could call it: my baby (as there indeed a metaphor of giving birth could apply), mon cherie (as it makes me being passionate about it, feeling happy and satisfied, gives me edge, and I am loving it … well, most of the time), my opponent (cos I would like to throw it all away, get rid of it, never come closer again), my protector (as I can always hide behind it, always keep it close to me), my companion (as it travels with me and gives me reasons to travel).
Time to go to bed.I am way over my bed time!
By Nana | August 15, 2006 | Topics: Personal, PhD |
August 16th, 2006 at 10:15 am
Hello, it’s entirely understandable that you’ve had a slump - you have been working like mad for a long time. So relax and just do a little bit and see how it feels. Otherwise you’ll think of the work you need to do in its entirety, which is not a good idea! I should know
Your posts on here have become a little unhinged…don’t kill yourself over this. Finishing a PhD in two years is a phenomenal achievement, so don’t feel bad if it takes you two years and a week!
August 16th, 2006 at 10:31 am
My darling git;)), thanks for supportive words. You should know, I know;) Well, actually what kills me is the fact that I am so overloaded with Summer School that I barely breathe let alone work properly. Once I start working again, I am sure all the doubts will disappear.
Hope you are fine, and that the bus incident in London did not leave a bad taste on our meeting there. I was really happy to c u again;) And –> next year you come to our summer school;)
August 16th, 2006 at 3:26 pm
Well, given that I still don’t have a job, we should first of all see if I am still in this f*cking profession before talking about next summer…Was good to see you as well